what's it take to get a little help 'round here?

(thursday april 19 1140am.....on teh steps of the cathedral......bits of steps missing from being blown up.....dubrovnnik, croatia)

i just stepped out of the british consulate......there isn't a canadian one here but we're commonwealth, right?....i was pretty excted to be somewhere where i could finally find a proper massage therapist.....my back is pretty constant and i try my best not to let it stop me.....(altho it does slow me down quite a bit).....anyway.....besides making me feel like an idiot, i was told straightforwardly that they only carry lists of lawyers (implication :nothing so silly as massage therapists) and that they were only thre for emergencies (implication: of which back issues does not qualify).....and that if i truly did have a back problem that i should go to the hospital......
i work in a hospital.....there is NOTHING they are going to be able to do for me......give me more drugs? what a waste of resources......
.....and i can't believe that i'm still crying about it but it's just so damn frustrating......i can't carry on like this for another month......

UPDATE thrusday april 26......my experience at the canadian embassy in tallinn was the complete opposite.....the woman was surprised at my request but SO nice.....she looked the information up for me on the internet and then recommended a location and marked it on the map......she even wished me good health and that i would feel better so that i could enjoy estonia.....so nice not to make a person in pain feel like an idiot.....so the happy ending is that i got a massage today....yeah!.....and i'm achy now but that is normal post-massage-i-will-hopefully-not-be-getting-headaches-for-a-while achiness......woohoo!