4ShellB.....(a mini wah!)

it's mere minutes before midnight and i sit at home......at the cusp of a new ..........oh, who the fuck cares........

the point is i'm here....on a night when everyone else seems to be out......at home

my excuse if bronchitis kept me in tonight........that bastard!......i never ever liked him.........yet he pops inot my life whenever he feels like it (usually a holiday) and pushes me around....."stay there"....."sit down"....."oh, you're not going anywhere"........and i take it

but i guess i just have to be patient.......i just have to wait for him to leave......this time, with all his shit........i don't want him to show up unexpected (again) because he left a little momento behind.........some scrap that he thinks entitles him to break and enter my life..........

my excuse.......
......my face is burning........is it my fever or something else
.......a tear scratches my eye.......
and i'm left.......
irritated

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11:51pm
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genius!

oh my dude! i have learned something....really....i did....thank you rach....thank you for your patience and time.....to help me link people and now........(don't stop now)......now, i've even altered the template too.....on my own.......of my own volition.......

how innnovative!......how exciting!.......how 2001!........i am finally catching up to the times............woohoo!

a year

so it's official............it's been one year since my accident.....in which my friend and i were off to study for midterms and got hit by an uncoming car and then a pole........it's been a long and eventful year......one in which i have been more broken physically, mentally and emotionally than i have ever been before......thankfully i wasn't broken spiritually..........but yeah, so much for the monotony of change.............i hope the moments continue to change in a pseudo-predictable small and seemingly stable way.......i hope that change reclaims its slow, small way of creeping up on me..............

i'm getting better..........i'm back at school now, back at work..............but i still have pain and i still get nightmares and i still have strange moments of freaking out.............i still can't remember things and have more trouble processing info than before.............but hopefully............. .........monotonously.........i will regain my normality............unfortunately, i fear that i am going to have to redefine it.................

oh well......on to the celebration!!!!!!!!!!!!!