How relationships start & end

i was trying to get some homework done tonight ......looking through some plastic bags in the corner of my computer room.....i shuffled the piles of discheveled papers around......found treasure: my awesome hole punch that clips into a binder (broken now....crushed in the accident)......then i realized these were the notes from that semester......i browsed briefly and came upon a duotang......my journal of mismatched and irregular entries........my thoughts i deemed worthy of penmanship...or those scribbled in boredom........one of the entries on the last day i wrote in it was very parallel to something i almost wrote yesterday.......when driving, i randomly think: of how i thought of you on your birthday....but was not able to wish you well......
....well, i found this entry....i wonder if it was about you or someone else or noone in particular........it went something like this:

"Fri.Sept 10, 2004 ...

How relationships start & end

I thought of you on your birthday...contemplated sending a note...fantasized your reaction...feared your words.
I thought of you on your birthday...knowing you'd not thought of me."